Introducing Alexandria...

Honestly, if I truly thought about this, I think I would have realized so much sooner how cathartic keeping a journal could be; I guess I just never thought I’d be putting it all out there for the world to see. I am by no means a very open person, although I’m often called on to be a very public person, and some may even call my demeanor stiff, but its not really meant to come across as such, I’m just, well, hmmm. I guess I was just always taught to keep private matters private, keep your emotions in check, remain poker-faced and never show weakness. That’s how we ladies win right?



But in the spirit of being true to a dear friend who has helped me out countless times, I figured I’d give this a shot. A little bit about myself: I’m 31 and I’ve been married to my husband for about 3 years now. I am a consultant with a pretty well-known accounting firm; my husband has a law degree, but he’s currently out of work, which is strange for me. If I’m being truly honest, I’m used to being with men who are pretty financially stable and definitely employed. But in this economy they say we are all supposed to be very thankful that we even have jobs. One of the companies that we are currently auditing just fell victim to massive layoffs, so I am witnessing first hand how all of this is affecting everyone.
My issue I guess is that, all of this is going to “Taylor’s” head (“Taylor” being my husband). It’s so weird to see this once confident man sink to such a weird low place, not to mention the effect this is having on our lifestyle. But anyway, I’m really not in the mood to think about that today; I’ve only recently begun working on this new contract and so we’ve been pulling some long hours, getting acquainted with the client’s previous financials and systems. My schedule has been so busy lately that I barely have time to breathe, not to mention maintaining my gym schedule 6 x per week, and keeping up with social engagements. And then there’s Taylor. I feel like I’ve been working overtime to help him land a new job for the past seven months, so I am somehow required to maintain my life, work, my book, marriage and his needs?
I guess there is something to be said for putting everything out there on the table like this. I’m great with numbers, but I feel even more at home with words. I keep telling myself that once I’m done writing the book, then I’ll be able to slow down enough with “work work” to think about having kids. I do want that someday, I’m just not sure when. I’ll keep you updated on what’s next. Stay tuned.
P.S. Sorry about any misspelled words, I’m trying to be as free as I can here.

Alex